i hurt. from everything. i'm so inconsistent with the way i feel.

i need this vacation ASAP

location: work mood: sad

would you still be my friend if i told you that I meditate to the Kenny G Christmas CD?

I've been having panic attacks again. its weird. i don't know what it is. Nothing has really changed other than moving from the apartment to the house. but i love the house and i have no reason to be this anxious.

what the fuck is going on inside my head?!

mood: anxious

summer summer summer SUMMERRRRRRRRRRRRR is almost here.

HOLLA. i have one million works to do but i choose to write in my livejournal instead of getting it done. sam- 1 anthem-0

im still incredibly frustrated about the dramatic bullshit that went down with Faget and Aaron. sometimes i think that at 21 years old we should be old enough to deal with this shit in a civilized manner but it always turns into a bitch fest. oh well shake the haters off.

so i played soccer for the first time in like 3 years. my first mistake was wearing my dunks. i should have known that flat bottomed shoes are not the best for playing soccer in. regardless i had fun. within the first 3 minutes of our game i fell on my ass so hard that im having trouble walking normally today. although its sort of satisfying to have my muscles hurt this bad. it makes me feel like i did something more than sit at home and smoke dro all day. i also forgot that luke and nathan are so fucking good it makes the rest of us look like we have never touched a soccer ball in our life. but it was funny watching luke run around in my tiny girls soccer shorts. maybe tonight when i eat the mushrooms we'll play again and i'll wear my cleats and i'll own that mothafuckaaaaa.

so regardles of how bad a week i had things seem to be looking up. I'm getting a new car stereo tomorrow!!!!! and we're getting our new couch delivered. that should be fantastic. plus i got paid today and my car insurance is paid for the next 4 months and most of my bills are all paid and life is good. I am so excited about the trip to cincy next friday. Its paytrick's 21st birthday and Fall of Troy and Foxy Shazam are playing in covington. I cant wait to see Marley!!! and it will be wonderful to see Daisy too. I am not anticipating Hannah and Luke fighting the entirity of our drive up there and back. I might have to drug one and/or both of them so they'll sleep and i can have some peace and quiet. or maybe i'll just live with it. ugh

so we had an earthquake this morning? and i slept through it? thats super rad

location: worky work work mood: cheerful

This week has been bizarre. The days are starting to run together and I am noticing things about my day to day activity that I had not taken the time to notice before. It may be the pot smoking but I’m finding it hard to shake the haze that encompasses my brain. Last night Dan and I were driving to the Nachbar (which I have adopted as my favorite place to get dranks; more on that later) and I was expressing my concern about being out incredibly late and waking up incredibly early. I decided to take it easy and drink a few beers as opposed to mixed drinks to try and defer the hangover symptoms this morning. Well when I woke up 20 minutes late for work with the worst cotton mouth in the world I quickly learned this is not the case. I had an amazing time so it was worth it but my current migraine (which feels like someone has taken that chemistry book that mary todd gave us in high school that weighs about 14 lbs and probably gave us all scoliosis from carrying it around in our backpacks because she insisted that we bring it to class everyday regardless of if we use it, and has been banging it over my head repeatedly for the past 3 hours) is reminding me of why I should never go out to bars on weeknights. Lesson learned.

As Daniel and I were lying in bed last night he suggested we take a weekend trip to Cincinnati. This is a suggestion I am incredibly fond of especially after our “you never want to go anywhere” argument. I love that boy. Love love love him. It should be fun and now I am old enough to go out now I can experience a nightlife other than Louisville’s.

I also have been adding to the “Things I love to do on a regular basis” list, which I created to document what exactly I do with my time. They are as follows:

1. target shopping with daniel
2. watching the boondocks with aaron
3. smoking doja
4. arguing with luke
5. reading trashy magazines
6. dancing with blair(needs to be on a more regular basis than it currently is)
7. youtube-ing
8. making mix cds
9. chasing Edward around the apartment
10. taking a nap with the windows open
11. highlighting things
12. playing burnout
13. eating sushi AT mimosa
14. sending 14 emails a day to Sandra
15. blow rides with karla


to be continued….

mood: Hungover

yesssss they are MINE


hmm im 21, now. DAMN IT FEELS GOOD TO BE A GANGSTA

ok so my livejournal has a mind of its own? it posted my last entry three times. i hate computers.

in other news.. im exhausted still. letting foreign people stay with you is so tiring. ugh. i really should take a huge nap when i get home but thats not gonna happen. i should also clean my apartment but that also probably wont happen.

note to self: STOP BEING LAZY.

10 days until the government welcomes me into the world of the legal purchasing of alcohol.

WOO HOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

okay so it took me 2 hours to get home from work yesterday. i have to say that going 10 miles an hour from prospect to the highlands is invigorating.. especially when you are attempting to dodge cars that are sliding on ice because they decided to go the actual speed limit when there is an insane amount of snow falling to the ground. so i called into work today, which means ill probably get my ass chewed out but i didn't think it was worth almost dying again to make it in. although my boss has been incredibly unreasonable lately considering its time for us to get our bonuses and its easier for her to start counting shit against us so we cant get nice raises and anthem can save money. aint that a bitch.

what a great fucking night.

location: homez mood: cheerful music: radiohead

back to work.....yay??

at least i get to see my baby boots every day

blair,

things to add to the fun list

ridin dirty
stalking people on the internet
looking at pictures
putting on eye shadow
clicking a mechanical pencil
purposefully getting grandma ash and trying to make it to the ashtray without losing it
volleyball (that may already be on there)
swinging
rollerblading
riding the beast
yelling at people out of car windows
seperating the m&m's by color and eating only one color at a time
farting


i will be thinking of more.

silly adderal. now i cant sleep.

oh well. my sleep anxiety has gotten so much better. i am glad i decided to take a natural remedy for it instead of a prescription.


life is incredibly goofy right now. i am very happy. despite probably only getting 4 hours of sleep for tomorrow things are still fantastic. i like that.

RADIOHEAD'S NEW ALBUM COMES OUT IN 10 FUCKING DAYS.

calm yourself, child.

mood: indescribable

im on a conference call at work with a bunch of people in different departments across the country and in the middle of the call one of the guys goes "just so everyone knows its national talk like a pirate day so i expect everyone to be talking like a pirate".


you gotta love corporate america.

somedays im his world and somedays im his burden

but all im sayin is i love you.

i never get tired of looking at this picture everyday